Ask This To Yourself

Yes, how many people can ask that to their self?

How many times you ask it to yourself?

No, maybe more exactly is,

When you have the courage to ask it to yourself?

Me by myself, I just find the courage to ask it to myself just few months ago after I reach the point where I'm feeling totally lost. It's more better if you get lost somewhere in the middle of the country you never been there before than lost in yourself.
Feels like you never even know what you are, what you want, who you are to yourself, and it happen for so many years of your life without you knowing that you've been lost.
Maybe you will think that I reach that point in a great and beautiful places, but no, it's just in simple place, simple moment, in a rainy night and sit alone in the balcon of my room.

"Who Am I?"

It's just suddenly voice out in my heart. All I can do in that night is, cry so hard. Feeling lonely, feels like I'm the most miserable person in this world.

Why I cry?
I feel useless, I feel like all I've been done is done for nothing. And yes, I did everything without knowing for what, who, and where it will takes me.

What I do after I cry?
I just go to sleep. But before sleep, I planned that I will do some random things, without plans, just follow where my foot want to takes me.

And in the next day ..
I go to the beach, bringing my sketch book, even I didn't make it to draw something. I just sit and hear the voice of the waves. Still that "Who Am I?" question still there in my head. And then I go to the book store, walking around there, wondering where I will stop, and yes, I stop in front of photography book shelf. I read all the books, and my heart said that "I can do better than this.". But still I didn't find the answer.
I walk around again and stop in front of motivational books shelf. There's some books I open and read but still didn't find a book that can make me read it more than 5 minutes. And finally, I find this book.

Just one book, but I can finally find the answer for my "Who Am I?" question. Not only find the answer, but finally after almost 30 years, I can build all my dreams, find my true calling for profession I want, everything just suddenly work out so well. This is a must read book to motivate you in doing great things for your life and for others.
After buy that book, I go home and read it, I even re-read and I always bring that book where ever I go.

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What I'm trying to tell you here is,..

Never afraid to ask the question "Who Am I?" to yourself. Because if you already have the courage to ask it to yourself, then you will be more a lot easier to move forward and reach all the things you've been dream of.

Knowing yourself better will make you know what you really want for you, for your life.

That lost moment will never be dissapear. People always change in their life journey. And in their changes, that lost moment will always come. When you get lost in that changes moments, just go out, walk without plan, do good things that can make you feel happy and free, go to a place that you've never been there before, and maybe get in to your uncomfort zone because sometimes, we can find other good parts of ourself in there. Never be afraid of changes as long as the changes lead you to the better you.

And the final thing you have to do, which is I did after read my magic book, I Pray before I sleep. Pray, saying thanks to God, asking for His guidance, ask Him to lead me to the good things, because whatever we do, the final decision is always in God's hands.

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*Notes:
You don't have to follow my way in doing this, everyone have their own way in doing things. Do it in good way.